also
finish burning. I would recite the entire Sutra once every day at noon.
After a while, my knees broke open and bled because I knelt on the brick
floor without any cushions. There were cushions, but I didn't use
them even when my knees broke open. That's how foolishly stubborn
I was. I continued reciting and paid no attention to my knees. "Break
open if you want, I don't care" was my attitude. It's hard
to describe that first experience reciting the Earth
Store Sutra. There was
a sense of purity and refreshing comfort in body and mind.
Now I take a look at all of you sitting there. The bench is already padded,
yet you insist on adding another cushion. When you kneel on the ground,
you have to have a cushion for your knees. You can't endure even a
little hardship. You are all much more intelligent than your teacher.
I was so foolish then that I didn't want a cushion. I wanted my knees
to break open and bleed. I felt it was right. Not to mention letting them
break open and bleed, you can't even bear to let your pampered knees
take a little pain. This just shows that you are much smarter than your
teacher.
I remember long ago, I would read the Dharma
Flower Sutra until my eyes
bled. Why did they bleed? Because I didn't sleep for many days. I
just knelt and read the Sutra. The more I read it the more I wanted to
read it and recite it. I forgot about eating and sleeping. When my eyes
started to bleed, I didin't notice, until the blood fell on the text.
Then I knew, "Oh, those aren't tears, that's blood!"
Since my eyes were acting up like that, I had to rest. That's how
I read the Dharma Flower
Sutra.
You say, "Dharma Master, you are really too stupid."
Right. If I was as intelligent as you, my eyes wouldn't have
bled.
Perhaps you are laughing to yourself, "That's right. That's
the way it is."
You may be more intelligent than me, but you are still my disciples. No
matter how smart you are, you are still studying with me.
I remember in the past, I read a lot of Sutras like that until my eyes
bled. But you shouldn't think that I was always a Dharma Master. I
have done everything. I was an emperor, and a minister, all kinds of things.
I remember it, more or less. That's why I'm not interested in
being an emperor or a politician, or even a wheel-turning sage king. It's
too much trouble. Everything is a lot of trouble. Students have the troubles
of students, workers have the troubles of workers, business people have
business troubles, officials have official troubles, and monks have monks'
troubles. However, if you know how to do what you're doing, the troubles
don't present any problem. If you can turn the state around, it's
not troublesome. Take things in stride.
Adversity
moves the Way.
Yielding carries the function of the Way.
Anything you cannot let go of becomes a trouble. Once you let go of it,
it's no longer troublesome. Being able to put it down means saying,
"Everything's okay, no problem." If you can do that, you'll
be a wonderful
person.
When I was studying, I also had my share of trouble. At first when I learned
very slowly, everyone looked down on me, saying, "We've never
seen such a dullard. He can't even memorize eight lines from the Three
Character Classic."
Once I got the hang of it, I learned very fast. Learning fast is a good
thing, but it also has its troubles. No one thought much of me when I
was a slow learner, but when I became a quick learner, some people were
jealous or envious. My teacher, who didn't know how to be a teacher,
praised me in front of my classmates, saying, "In my fifty or sixty
years of teaching, I've never had such a capable student as this.
He will certainly do great things in the future." As soon as he praised
me like that, the trouble came. What trouble? Girls. I think everyone
understands what I mean. I don't have to explain, because everyone
is an expert in this area. You didn't laugh at all while I talked
for so long, but now everyone is laughing. I'm sure you all know what
my girl classmate had in mind. My teacher had said I would do great things,
and she wanted to see what kind of great things I could do.
When I got down from the brickbed to recite my lesson, the girl gave me
a kick. I didn't know what she was up to. Even though I was sixteen,
I knew nothing about romance. I didn't understand the mentality of
girls. I glared at her and furiously said, "You want me to beat you
up?" The girl ran away in fright, and I thought I'd gotten rid
of that trouble. Guess what? She sent a matchmaker to my house to speak
with my mother. The matchmaker said they didn't want anything--no
money or gifts--simply my mother's agreement. My mother was overjoyed.
When I returned home, she told me, "Your classmate sent a matchmaker
over saying her family didn't want anything except our permission.
They were willing to send their daughter over with no conditions."
"Did you agree?" I asked.
"I waited for you to come home so I could ask you," my mother
replied.
"At least you had enough sense not to make the decision on your own.
If you had given your agreement today, I would be leaving home tomorrow."
My mother said, "You must not leave home."
I said, "If you don't want me to leave home, then don't promise
this girl anything."
"Fine," said my mother.
That's how I got rid of the trouble I encountered when I was sixteen.
When the Mukden Incident of September 18, 1931, occurred, I was still
young and didn't understand very much. I didn't have any sense
of what "country" and "family" were. Later when the
Japanese attacked China and went about murdering and setting fires, destroying
the Chinese people, I felt it was totally unjust. What right did they
have to lay waste to China? I wanted to join the revolution to drive the
Japanese out so that the Chinese people could once again live in peace
and safety. However, in the end I failed to carry out my resolve. I wasn't
able to reverse the
tides of destiny. I didn't hate the Japanese, because I knew hatred
was useless. I only tried to think of ways to counteract them. My idea
was to attack them with fire. Since they belonged to the element fire,
I would fight fire with fire, for example, setting fire to their dwellings.
I wanted to write articles to stir up a revolution, but I didn't succeed.
Later I chose to walk the path of monkhood. My lifelong regret after I
became a monk was that I wasn't able to fulfill my patriotic duty.
Since I wasn't able to sweat and toil for the sake of my country,
I decided to rise above worldly affairs and propagate the Buddha's
teachings.
I had predicted the surrender of the Japanese five years before it happened.
Based on the theory of the five elements, I predicted that their presence
in China would weaken and then disappear by that time. After the Japanese
surrendered, when the central government had not accepted the island of
Guang and the Communists had not yet taken control, there were many, many
ghosts, demons, and weird beings on the streets of China. Some of the
"people" walking on the streets were actually ghosts and freaks,
but no one recognized them. There was no government and there were no
laws at that time, so it was total anarchy. Witch doctors and spirit mediums
were widespread. They were basically demons wreaking havoc. Luckily there
were still people who recited the Shurangama Mantra, so even though the
demons made an appearance, they didn't do any great mischief. Anarchic
times are not pleasant at all. At that time all the ghosts, demons, and
weird beings came out, because there was no one to watch over them. Most
people weren't aware of these things, but I saw very clearly what
was going on. I have tasted the flavor of anarchy.
As a young child, I didn't even know how to speak slowly--that's
how dull I was. I was no better than a mute. I sat at home every day,
not wanting to play with other kids. When I joined the Virtue Society
at sixteen, I practiced speaking every day and gradually learned to lecture
in public. Then I studied Buddhism and taught the Dharma to others, explaining
as much as I understood. I participated in many activities in the Buddhist
society as well. Despite my youth, I was eager to serve Buddhism. And
so at the age of sixteen I went to a temple to lecture on the
Sixth Patriarch Sutra.
After reading this Sutra, I wrote a couplet which says:
Although
sudden and gradual are not the same,
When the work is complete, they are one: why divide
north and south?
Holy and common differ temporarily, but
Their basic nature is the same. Don't argue about
east and west.
I also lectured on other short
Sutras such as the Vajra
Sutra and the Amitabha
Sutra, and taught people
the Buddhadharma. Even though I was not fully literate myself, I was willing
to lecture. There were so many illiterate people in China, and if I didn't
teach them as much as I knew, they would never understand
what Buddhism was about. At sixteen, I took it upon myself to propagate
Buddhism. And so, after so many years of practice, I can now speak and
lecture a little bit.
I also knew how to recite the Great Compassion Mantra in those days. The
first time I saw the Great Compassion Mantra, I was extremely delighted.
I started reading it when I boarded the train. When I got off the train
half an hour later, I could recite it from memory. Then I learned the
Forty-two Hands and Eyes. After cultivating them for several years, I
began curing people's illnesses. Using the Great Compassion Mantra
and the Forty-two Hands and Eyes, I was able to cure any illness.
In my life I have never been afraid of anything. I don't fear wild
beasts, heavenly or earthly demons, spirit or ghost demons, or even human
demons. Why not? It's because I am not afraid of death. I remember
that as a young student of Buddhism, thinking that I had enough samadhi,
I became arrogant and made a wild statement. I said, "Everyone is
afraid of demons, but I'm not. Demons are afraid of me! Heaven demons,
earth demons, spirit, ghost, and human demons--I'm not afraid of any
demons at all." Guess what happened after I said that? A demon of
sickness came.
And when it came, it was I who feared the demon, not the other way around.
When the sickness came, my body wouldn't listen to orders--I couldn't
even walk around or sit up. I was so sick that I lay on the bed from morning
to night, unable to eat or drink. I thought, "I spoke foolishly,
and now a demon of sickness has found me and there is nothing I can do."
I was seventeen or eighteen at the time.
I was so sick I went into a coma and was on the verge of death. Suddenly
I saw the three Filial Sons of the Wang Family of Manchuria. Two of them,
a Buddhist Bhikshu and a Taoist Master, had left the home-life, and the
third was an elderly layman. They came and took me out to play. As soon
as we went out the door, our feet left the ground and we rode the clouds
and drove the wind. We took off from the roof of the house and when I
looked down, the house was already very small and I could see a lot of
people.
We met a lot of people and traveled everywhere, to all the scenic spots
in China and all the temples, on Mount Wutai, Mount Emei, Mount Jiuhua,
Mount Putuo, and others. We also visited foreign lands and saw people
who had blond hair and blue eyes. It was like a movie, scene after scene
quickly passed. Frame after frame, we actually went to those places. We
saw many sights and heard many things. When we returned, I opened the
front door and saw myself lying on the bed inside the house. "How
can this be?" I thought, and as soon as I was aware that there were
two of me, the two changed into one. My mother and father were at my bedside
watching me. When they saw me begin to breathe again, they cried, "He's
alive! He hasn't died!" "What are they talking about?"
I wondered. Then I discovered I was lying on the bed unable to move, and
remembered I was sick. My parents told me I had been
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